I’ve got a feeling . . . These four words lead most people to the same conclusion – Black Eyed Peas. I know its a big hit – my kids love it. I think it is one of the most annoying songs ever released.
I only bring this up because I do have a feeling. It is a feeling that surfaces periodically throughout the year. Unfortunately, I can’t regulate it. Sometimes, I know it’s coming. On his birthday, I know it will be here. On other days, like today, I didn’t expect it.
Today, all of Simon’s contemporaries graduated preschool. It marks the first of many milestones that will be depressing instead of joyous. I’ve got a feeling . . . .
It’s a feeling of loss. A feeling of loneliness. A feeling of deprivation. A feeling of resentment. I don’t think it will ever go away. Hopefully, it just won’t visit that often.